To be able to find your feet, find your purpose you need to strip away the baggage and camouflage.
Ever looked in the mirror and thought my god what am I thinking, I don't like ......
yeah you get my point.
One thing I have learnt from the past year is to except me for me.
Amazing how much, one lady with a plan (yes Michelle Bridges I'm talking about you) helped me not just physically but mentally.
I have for far to long tried to be someone I'm not to make others comfortable and happy. Always placing other peoples happiness before my own only to have friendships dissolve because I never spoke the truth about how they saw me, about what I truly felt at certain times.
In the process I've taken away my inner happiness, losing who I truly and who I want to be.
I critised myself, my appearance my body and mind for far to long.
Losing myself to the depressing state of mist that became of me.
Today I decided to take away the layers, take away the obstacles and see who I really am.
I am a woman with a drive for life.
Health and well being for myself has become a very big priority.
I may not have the perfect, sculpted body, I have saggy bits, wrinkles and huge feet.
But I have self love, self esteem and new found lust for life.
I hold my head high when I walk because I am happy with the beauty that I see and feel around me.
I may not be attractive for some, there would be quiet a few people out there who would find my pictures disgusting but you know what, those people can own that.
And honestly - I don't care.
I am me.
I wont have the perfect flat belly that so many strive for.
I wont have the perfect perk boob's of a 16 year old.
Stretch mark's cover my body
But for me
Its my bodies journal
Each note and mark reminding me of how I got to where I am now.
The events that changed my life
Sometimes for the bad, sometimes for the good.
The memories of a life time
No greater book can be written.
I love me