I cant believe I haven't been 'here' since June! over 4 months...what the hell??!!!
Ive almost completed another round and I haven't blogged once.
Allow me to explain......
After totally screwing with my own head mid round 2 I lost the plot. I became obsessed with numbers, working out as much as I could and burning a bucket load of cal's in the process. While I thought I was feeling great I was suffocatings myself with darkness. My weight wasn't moving and numbers became my focus. It was angering me that nothing I did was reflecting on the scales.
I had to step back and remember why I started this in the first place.
It wasn't for weight, it wasn't for numbers or trying to out do myself so I would fall into a pile of shit.
I did this to be healthy.
I did it to find 'me' again.
My body didn't care about what numbers the scales popped out, how many cal's I was counting, how many km's I could curn out. It was happy and delighted that I was taking control over the years of bad habits, giving it back nourishment and life.
This round has been my light bulb moment. I have learnt to listen to my body, not my mind and have finally found a peace.
No more hiding in the dark :) this is me.... free of the baggage